I haven’t updated blog for a long time, have I?
No… the truth is …. I decided not to publish a lot of posts. That’s why I update less often. Especially lately, I feel that what I write is dangerous to myself. May be this is an effect from growing up a little bit.
This one was written since 31 Jan 2009, I have just decided to publish it. (After revising, of course !!)
My friends and I are going to graduate this year. We’re losing privileges of being student and being a kid. How unfortunate…
When I read a faculty magazine this morning, it said we’re going to have a lot of new faculties this year. I looked at their profiles and found out that most of them graduate from here. Just like us this time…. but in 10 years ago… They got the first honor… got a scholarship and went studying aboard, got a doctoral degree and just come back here.
This reminds me one of my friend who got this kind of scholarship too…
This friend of me want to be a pilot, it’s her dream. She’s very talent, and is going to graduate with first honor. But in Thailand, it is very hard to be a pilot if you’re a woman (Yes, discrimination). If she continues her study as a pilot, which has very high expenses, there is a chance that she might end up not being pilot in the end.
In the end, she decides that she should accept the scholarship and go to study aboard. I do agree with her decision too. If there’s a safe path in front of you, why should we struggle in the dangerous path we can’t see ahead? Receiving the scholarship is the best option for her and her family, but not for her dream.
Now I began to think…Have those new faculties ever had a dream like here? A dream that they can’t pursue in reality.
….Hope that this is their dreams….
I feel sad… I don’t know why. But it seems like most of our lives will repeat a loop created reality and culture. . Next 10 years, a lot of things will change.. but we will be repeating the same loop, our children will do so again… again and again.