As We Grow Up…

I haven’t updated blog for a long time, have I?

No… the truth is …. I decided not to publish a lot of posts. That’s why I update less often. Especially lately, I feel that what I write is dangerous to myself. May be this is an effect from growing up a little bit.

This one was written since 31 Jan 2009, I have just decided to publish it. (After revising, of course !!)


My friends and I are going to graduate this year. We’re losing privileges of being student and being a kid. How unfortunate…

When I read a faculty magazine this morning, it said we’re going to have a lot of new faculties this year. I looked at their profiles and found out that  most of them graduate from here. Just like us this time…. but in 10 years ago… They got the first honor… got a scholarship and went studying  aboard, got a doctoral degree and just come back here.

This reminds me one of my friend who got this kind of scholarship too…

This friend of me want to be a pilot, it’s her dream. She’s very talent,  and is going to graduate with first honor. But in Thailand, it is very hard to be a pilot if you’re a woman (Yes, discrimination).   If she continues her study as a pilot, which has very high expenses, there is a chance that she might end up not being pilot in the end.

In the end, she decides that she should accept the scholarship and go to study aboard.  I do agree with her decision too. If there’s a safe path in front of you, why should we struggle in the dangerous path we can’t see ahead? Receiving the scholarship is the best option for her and her family, but not for her dream.

Now I began to think…Have those new faculties ever had a dream like here? A dream that they can’t pursue in reality.

….Hope that this is their dreams….

I feel sad… I don’t know why. But it seems like most of our lives will repeat a loop created reality and culture. .  Next 10 years, a lot of things will change.. but we will be repeating the same loop, our children will do so again… again and again.


  1. #1 by TAP on April 25, 2009 - 12:48 am

    For me, Of what I’m doing now, it may not my childhood dream, but it’s my today’s dream.

    I think types of people have more than just 2 cases – who can follow their dream and who can’t. Most of people haven’t even had a dream, so if you have a dream, you are more fortunate than many ones.

  2. #2 by Aruj on April 25, 2009 - 11:02 am

    I think your friend (mine too) made a wrong decision but that was just my opinion. She was the one who chose it. I don’t understand why people always live their life boring and blame that it is this world’s rule and they can’t change it.

    My job, I would tell you frankly, is too hard for me. As you know me, I like this kind of job but I didn’t have enough skill at the first time. But if I didn’t decide to do it, when would I do? I don’t think that working here isn’t a general career path and I’m satisfy with it. Maybe in 5 years or less, I can break the loop you’ve talked about.

    One more thing, my recent decision on my work is that I’ll think that I’m working here as a voluntary job. It doesn’t mean that I’ll not get paid but I’ll work for a result that isn’t money. Let’s see what this thought will change me in our next meeting!


  3. #3 by TAP on April 25, 2009 - 2:56 pm

    I love Aruj comment…

  4. #4 by ijemmy on April 26, 2009 - 4:20 am

    “I don’t understand why people always live their life boring and blame that it is this world’s rule and they can’t change it.”

    I love this quote…
    But still, do you think that the other choice she didn’t choose is too risky?

  5. #5 by wiennat on April 26, 2009 - 5:21 am

  6. #6 by teerapap on April 26, 2009 - 12:38 pm

    I think it depends on nature and environment of that person. Both ways(dream or reality) are right but the most important thing is that she makes the decision for her life by herself.

    Dream BIG and take risks, it’s simple. it’s the rule of gambling and life.

    This entry reminds me of this performance.
    You have to see it. “I Dreamed A Dream.” the lyrics is so touched.

  7. #7 by dcdsc on November 19, 2009 - 1:52 am


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